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For What It’s Worth

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I’m wanting to jump past this part of my book. It’s not very political? It’s irrelevant, supposedly political and yet decidedly apolitical? My Own Identity Politics? Within this highly charged—downright electric—landscape in which nations were literally emerging, a writer-like person was hiding out too: and yet, I’d persist haplessly in a foreign terrain. I was a lost cause, a writer already undercover, pretending in politics. It’s my summer in the Soviet Union. Yes, that Soviet Union. My part of the Soviet Union was as you might imagine it to be: colorless high rises and patches of weeds stretching throughout haunting projects, a grayish pallor over a city crisscrossed with tram wires overhead and situated on top of a metro system that reeked of infinity and unhappiness and industry and dank urbanity, trousers with holes on sad men, ripped stockings not worthy of being called nylons on women with unfashionable purses, Orwellian grocery stores with nothing on the shelves, cr

Chapter 3: I Know It’s Over

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            There Is A Light That Never Goes Out.             How Soon Is Now?             Panic.             Bigmouth Strikes Again.             The Boy With The Thorn In His Side.             Heaven Knows I’m Miserable Now.             Girlfriend In A Coma.             Ask.             That Joke Isn’t Funny Anymore.             A chapter on my University of Arizona “era” should carry a Smiths’ song title. But which one?             Late eighties, early nineties. Think of me as a Great Big Inexperienced Dork With Excellent Grades. And This Weird U2 Thing. During college, every song was by the Smiths or the Cure or Depeche Mode, and half of my crowd stumbled through dorm life in t-shirts and pajama bottoms, spaghetti sauce hardened on mom’s old pots and pans, report cards blithely testifying to a kind of superiority that was definitely taken to heart, sexually lithe and smarmy and suicidal.             (Thank God for U2.)             (Thank God for the